yin and yang

i learnt
love is pure and kind and amazing and intense

i learnt
all human are unique and different and beautiful

i learnt
love is not about being similar all together

love is like yin and yang

you need to get the other half to make it perfect



being in love
you don’t need to be the same
the differences that fill the gap
the most important thing in love is,
… be honest to yourself
… be honest to your partner
… compliance is a waste of time

Kuching, Sarawak

Next destination, Kuching @ Sarawak

Date Traveled
19 Nov - 22 Nov, 2009 via Air Asia and Malaysia Airlines , KL-KCH direct flight

tribal, i think it's cool

Place Visited
Sarawak Cultural Village

- around 30 minutes drive from town. it's fun here. there's so many show houses from various sarawak ethnic like iban, melanau, penan and bidayuh. you can also rent a room for home stay. i enjoy the dance performance. the music was unique, the dress was colourful, i enjoy it so much. the entrance fee is RM60 and you can stay as long as you want. i spend the whole day here, very tiring but fun.

Waterfront

- it's a place for a walk fronting the river. didn't manage to catch a sunset as it was raining and gloomy.

Serikin

- people from Indonesia will gather here to sell their goods and stuff. not really interesting for me.

there's this old man was shouting with melody and blowing small bamboo whistle, it goes like this

burung menyanyi,burung menyanyi...3 5ringgit 6 sepuloh....sayang anak

i find it funny and interesting, he is actually promoting his product for kids. well i bought the whistle too for no reason.

this guy is playin 'sape' - check out, it's connected to the speaker to blast out the sound...cool.

this is at waterfront

hmm not really sure what's this, but it got something to do with James Brooke

Signature Food
Laksa Sarawak - Mi Kolok - Mi Sapi - Ayam Penyek - Kek Lapis

(Mi is Mee, that's what they write on the food menu)

must go : Baruk @ Kg.Boyan, restaurant on the tree, delicious and cheap seafood. I like the food and ambiance.

Laksa Sarawak, love it so much, but i hate the tauge part, not a fan!

People
Cultured & Reserved

not friendly at all, muka ketat merata-rata even at restaurant, when you order food, they're like - OK WHAT DO YOU WANT? ORDER AND BACK OFF!

Night Life
Ipanema - SOHO - Monster Tongue

They're not fun party people. i went to monster tongue, it's so difficult to make friends with them or even a simple HI!

Kuching town is a silent town at night....but silent doesn't mean peace, that's what the local says.

Weather

Tropical: sunny and hot

Hotels

Day 1 - Pullman

(nice, modern, new but the bed is as hard as sleeping on plywood, expensive tho)

Day 2 and 3 - Tune

(not clean, dusty and stinky toilet, overrated, check in at 2pm, check out 10am - WTF! , not too worries, the staff will knock your door to ask you to checkout ASAP after 10am, really....)

Must Buy
White pepper

Black pepper

Kek Lapis, it's beautiful and colourful

Next questions, would i visit Kuching again?

well, no.....unless if it's a Rainforest World Music Festival i would consider coming back to Kuching.

overall, it was a new discovery and experience. the whole trip was just moderate. i only got excited when i touch down as i was welcome by ANGEL, visit to the cultural village and dinner at baruk restaurant....lucky i got a perfect companion!

P.E.A.C.E by Amani Alive

7 days without you

update bulan october 2009

hmm where have is been?

nowhere but my lil cosy studio and huge bright office.

sound check sound check

- party latest one speed zone @ genting. masuk sober keluar pun sober…it didn’t hit the g spot. also i manage to say hi to few live bands around klang valley.

- friends, yeah i did meet up with few close friends, siti, danir, azure and i finally introduce the man to them. had a lovely halloween dinner and board games after that.

- manage to have coffee with cikli, aida, and darwin together with the man. lucky they can click well.

- i bought 7 pairs of shoes and as usual i keep on wearing the same one everyday tho i have many options.

- business is ok it can be better if i try harder.

- family, hmm ok i guess. i have my own way of living so no matter what they complains about me, “ada aku kesah?”

- recently i got addicted to facebook online games…nasty! (i regret…bad invention)

other than that, life is routine as it can be. my free spirit sides of me really hate me now and it’s struggling to hate me more now. so, to respond form that, im all ready to fly out from kuala lumpur. tickets done. hotel, ill figure out when im there. its going to be my second first time visit there.

i need to find my momentum back. sometimes i do get tired working. when i say tired, im really really tired. when im tired, i don’t care about the world. when i don’t care about the world, i become lazy. when im lazy, i become “ada aku kesah?”

my boss always told me, amani money is almost everything. don’t stop working hard.

ape kau ingat aku machine? work – life – balance lah boss. bila aku cerai berai sebab office dah jadi suami, ada kau kesah?

mata kian memandang

hati menangung derita

tinggalan beban di tanggung sendiri

kemaafan jauh diduga

kapan berakhir?

...

Datanglah sayang, dan biarkan ku berbaring
Di pelukanmu, walau untuk sejenak
Usaplah dahiku, dan ‘kan ku katakan semua

Bila ku lelah tetaplah disini,
jangan tinggalkan aku sendiri
Bila ku marah, biarkan ku bersandar,
jangan kau pergi untuk menghindar

Rasakan resahku, dan buat aku tersenyum
Dengan canda tawamu, walaupun ‘tuk sekejap
Kar’na hanya engkaulah, yang sanggup redakan aku

Kar’na engkaulah satu-satunya untukku,
dan pastikan kita s’lalu bersama
Kar’na dirimulah yang sanggup mengerti aku,
dalam susah ataupun senang

Dapatkah engkau s’lalu menjaga ku
Dan mampukah engkau mempertahankan ku

I

Have we ever ask ourself, who am i?
what’s the reason of me being in this world?
What’s my contribution to the world?
What is my life all about?
What drive me to live?
What’s important in our life that matters most?
What if I encounter sudden death, what are my regrets?

salam

sometimes in life, there's so many things that is unfair. there are so many things happened in life. what you give is what you get. i don't believe in this anymore. i've been giving a lot but what do i get in return?

looking back at my past, i smile and grieve. i wonder, how do i get thru all this shits and can still put a big smile on my face and just walk the life with confidence. was it a real smile?

a male bailed on me 5 days before, it was a traumatic experience in life. it's been 4 months eversince. there are times when sadness hit on me. there are times when i feel blessed. the world continue to live and leave me behind. people says moved on. forget it. you should be grateful that this shits actually happen now rather than later. u'll suffer more even.

times like this, when everybody start to come home and me here have no place to go as good as home, it feels like shit.

whatever it is, salam aidilfitri. maaf zahir dan batin.

P.E.A.C.E

home where the heart is

what can i say?

i'm feelin home sick now...feels like wana be home.

yeah ... i wana be home and share the laughter. the last laughter we had together was over christmas 2008. it was fun. really miss that moment. i wish it will happen again.

i've been missin a lot, briana, belina and latest one aalia...peaceful soul of mine.

where do i end up? what do i want? honestly, i need to re-configure this. there are times when i just feel like i wana drop everything that i've been work

ing for the past 11 years here and just go back to where i belong. scared. worried. what if? what if? what if? these questions keep on playing in my head.

yeah i actually think about goin back since a month ago. mom says, there's nothing left for me here. which is true i guess. nothing left here except for opportunities. the only thing that holding me back is my job. i'm too in love with my job. my job is my ecstasy.